Saturday, January 9, 2010
I'm tired.
Really.
Even through the weekend i couldnt take a good rest.
school work, proj, tuition work.
It just seems like everything is flooding to me.
for the past 14 and a half years of my life, i finally knew life have to be realistic.
Study hard is what parents tell us since young.
So, even when we are still in our mother's womb, stress has come about.
Classical music, poems, stories etc.
It seems like we've nvr ever stopped studying before.
it was fun when i was young.
but now, not.
parent's expectations, classmates comparing of marks, everything's so stressed up.
Even a rubber at the most tense moment will break, how about us?
we are much more weaker compared to rubber.
I know mummy's doing it all for me.
but it's just too much.
too much for me to accept.
i do admit.
i'm stressed.
as in, seriously stressed.
i realised i no longer smile/laugh/joke as much as i do last time.
and all those laughs and smiles now are just masks.
Masks to hide my stress away.
I tried to be strong.
and realised i'm not as strong as what i expected myself to be.
I cried.
yes, i do cry easily.
But it will always only to myself.
so no one will know.
I want everyone thinks that im strong, but well, i guessed i failed to do so.
now i couldnt even convice myself to be strong.
how do i convince others?
what im saying is like so contradicting but whatever.
but yes.
i cried.
perhaps it's a way of letting out my emotions.
Crying.
Thanks aaron and jiarui.
(:
always there to listen to me.
always there to comfort me.
Thank you a lot.
I mean it.
you're just such nice people.
to myself: limxiaojing, you've cried, so now's the time to smile and do your best!
不要害怕黑暗，而是期待黑暗过后来临的黎明，那会是最漂亮的。
<3
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